Thinking

I've been utterly tired the last few days to even think of making my little fingers work a tiny ounce to come up witha decent post....it's called being tired. Although it has been a time to reflect, I have also made a few new discoveries....near the WPC Biz School, I found a green pot filled with a beautiful orange flower....and pink lobelias in the middle...it took me back remembering the times when Amma and I planted marigolds, impatiens, roses, lobelia(mine were purple), and also veggies.....i had quite the green thumb...i still plant when I get the chance which hasn't been in a while....but thanks to the maintenance guy at The Villas (my apt. complex), he has redone all the beds....so now time to plant.....my jasmine bush (maali poos for u tamilians out there)has been putting out the most awesome fragrances....!!!

I decided to ponder - think about what to plant next....veggies aren't really my thing...i'm more of a flora person than fauna....so any suggestions on what to plant for the upcoming fall?

Silence

It was difficult to sit there in silence.....silence can be deafening....for some reason I didn't know wht to say; but suddenly i tried to utter a few measley words and it stopped at the tip of my tongue....how could I utter a few nonsensical words to fill the void.....it didn't make any sense at all....why should I be quiet when I wanted to talk...to make things better....but silence prevailed!!! Damn silence.

it came to me

Slowly i recognized that I would be the only one who understood what was going on in my head....i had to clear my thoughts which created cobwebs that distracted me from the truth.....i couldn't bare the truth - i wanted everything to vanish and to stop in mid-air so i could stay in the world that i had been living in for the past few months.....it only hit me yesterday that i was lied to and why does it hurt only know when i have known it for a few days.....i guess i was slowly - well very slowly - accepting reality.....me myself and i and reality all mixed together are not in conjuction - we tend to stray from reality as it is filled with hard verities and i am known to stay amongst the stars and live a pain-free life.....life has come easily to me allowing me to live simply and forget that their are people out there who can be monsters.....i try to believe that each person is a kind, gentle-hearted, pure soul with no malific intents......but i was proven wrong....and once again reality prevails.